The moments when you can't see how beautiful life actually is....

Everyone gets a little heart broken sometimes. All the negative things pop up in your mind at that point. Is life worth giving a try? I would say no, a big NO at the moment.It is very upsetting when you are misplaced by someone or when people talk shit behind your back. Loneliness is the worst feeling in the whole world. It is very difficult to face the people around who love you so much at that point. You look for negatives surrounding by. It kills your mind. How can you turn your back towards the people who loves you more than anything else is in the whole world? Think about the pleasures you are meant to give up to fit in. Everything feels so unnatural. You can’t find anything which soothes your mind. Is this the exciting life which everyone talking about? I don’t know what to say anymore. I wish life was a bit more entertaining for me. Do I sound a bit greedy? Well I am right now. I moments when you can’t see how beautiful life is.

Food Vs Study

Food items consumed:

2 Table spoons of Nutella without bread

1 Nutella sandwich

A glass of Milo

A handful of potato chips

A plate of rice plus pea and cauliflower curry from last night

2 Oranges

A handful of peanuts

A glass of mixed fruit juice

Micro waved 2 minutes noodles with chopped frozen vegetables

Another Nutella sandwich

Cold Chapattis and Chicken gravy

Remainder of Potato chips from the packet

A large glass of Party spider Orange Juice

5 hours of study comes to an end. 20 pages of notes are up somewhere in my head.
All ready to go.

P.S This post was written while I was studying for my terminal Biology paper.

Keep Breathing………..!!!

These days am so damn obsessed with the songs with the word “breathe” in it.

One of them is Breathe by Anna Nalick

Sing along if you wish:

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe


May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year.
"Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.
Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs toAnd I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to
But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.


P.S Make sure you drink a glass of water after. (:

What a waste of excitment

I Just got excited by receiving a mail from one of the flashest New Zealand school. Much more for an ordinary Grammar school.


To unravel my curiosity I opened it right after getting it out from my mail box with a huge smile on my face. Damn not this time. It’s only an application form for next year.
I don’t think am lucky enough to get in this time. But let me tell you something the school which am talking about is flash. Unlike other Grammar schools it is one of the top schools in New Zealand.


Last time I wasted 20 bucks and my valuable study time for my out of zone application. Was quite happy with my 15th place in the waiting list. Whoo –hoo .


It basically means I have 1 in 100 chance of getting in there. Unlike other schools they have a strict enrolment criterion for out of zone applicants. Apparently they conduct a ballet. The applicant needs to be son/daughter of the members of board of trustees or should have a sibling who is attending the school at the time or in past.
Unfortunately I don’t fit in any of these categories. Got to wait till end of next month to know whether I have to continue in my old school..!!

Test Tube Baby Doctor wins Nobel Prize

Thanks to Dr. Edward and Dr. Step Toe for the millions of test tube babies around the world. I am extremely proud to be a blog reader of a Vitro Baby “Katherine Bell”. It is amazing how a human life can be created in test tube which becomes the womb for a human life. Dr. Edward had to wait 32 years long to be accepted for his discovery.

Whether or not if you believe in God it doesn’t matter Test Tube Babies are created using human hands and brains.

I don’t think any world religions teach it is a sin to produce babies artificially. We cannot criticise a bizarre action by relating it to other aspects of the issue like an increase in homosexuality.

After reading an article “Pope condemns human cloning and stem cell research” I couldn’t help but comment on this. I don’t understand what the author of this article receives by scrutinising an authority’s response regarding a sensitive issue like artificial reproduction. It is extremely hard to embrace a criticism regarding the religious faith I grew up.
What is the point in manipulating a religious faith to criticize a scientific discovery?

Dopy questions like..
Do you think a baby conceived in test tube is still a child in the eyes of God?
Is only a tool to create issues in the society? Every scientific discoveries has both pros and cons. So why “artificial babies” are such a problem?

Where Am I ?


I'm waiting 4r the Friday night
I'm waiting 4r the holidays;
I'm waiting 4r the bus to come
I'm waiting 4r the food to be served
I'm in the waiting station!
In the waiting station of my life.

I'm waiting 4r the sun to come
I'm waiting 4r the moon to shine;
I'm waiting 4r the rain to go
I'm waiting 4r the rainbow

I'm waiting 4r the birds to sing;
I'm waiting 4r the perfect song
I'm waiting 4r the phone to ring
I'm waiting 4r the best person to talk
I'm waiting 4r an yes or know
I'm in the waiting station!
I’m in the waiting station of my life.

The people around me are lifting mountains,
Some are happy some are depressed and unread.
Too much confusion and pain
And am still in the waiting station
In the waiting station of my life.





Warning : Could be the worst poem you would have came across in your entire life.

Being Aneroxic

Life being an anorexic…….

Anorexia Nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by extreme weight loss and lack of eating. Treating anorexia is difficult because it is such a complex disorder. I want to share some interesting facts about anorexics. The anorexics have a distorted body image and they believe that they are fat and ugly. But in reality they are severely under weight. No one knows what anorexia is caused by. I am sure about the fact that by controlling their food intake they generate a feeling of control within themselves. I wonder if they are aware about the fact that they are risking themselves to a series of severe medical complications including a weakened heart muscle, kidney and liver disorders, gastro intestinal problems such as constipation and ulcers…..etc…The list seems to be endless.

What makes an anorexic to diet???To be honest I have no idea. To become skinny or the skinniest?...I have heard about special diets for anorexics. They heavily depends on diet pills. If you starve yourself your body goes into starvation mode. Where it begins to eat the muscles away.One Diet is to eat only buttered bread and loads of water. In around four days you will start too see your rib cage. you MUST Stop when you see your ribs and eat veggies. Avoid all types of carbohydrates especially potatoes..If you know anyone Who is anorexic or bulimic tell the person you trust. Remember : Anorexia is a psychological problem. That’s sounds bit like an advice to me. I hate it when some one advices me. A person is capable of making decisions if he/she had made a decision to diet.

So my point is how can you become a better anorexic.?

It is very hard to find an answer which satisfies a bunch of doctors. They are always good to come up with the name of a scary disease or a physcological condition. I have come up with a solution .

• Reaffirm the mission. Get hold on to a fat, blank note book and write down your goal, which is basically to lose weight. But be specific, how much in a particular time period. Flip through the pages when you feel like you are failing to achieve your goal.
• Come up with a list of punishments. Try disgusting tasks like cleaning the bathroom etc..
• Find another anorexic to comfort yourself. It could one among your friends or an online buddy. Discuss your plans and appreciate each other when you achieve something.

Thinspiration

The main reason why some one trying lose weight is because of the photo shopped celebrity images around them. Then why don’t we take it as an inspiration. Watch thinspiring films, literature and TV shows. I came up with a few of them. “I am an artichoke by Lucy Frank, “Dairy of an eating disorder by Chelsea Smith and Beverley Runyon. “For the love of Nancy’’ is a film based on the true story of the lead actress Tracey Gold. She was actually suffering from Anorexia Nervosa and this is made use in the movie to portray the role of Nancy. I always find someone as my role model. It is really helpful when we are trying to achieve something which we consider harder. Their footsteps will be there to guide us throughout the whole journey. Angelina Jolie would be an excellent choice






What else?.... I missed something really important. My experience while I was trying hard to look a bit skinnier. I was obsessed about being skinny after watching a whole season of America’s Next top model and also the news about Kareena kapoor being size zero. Enough to get my attention. Size zero? In my whole life I haven’t see any dress with a size zero tag. Well back to experience.I started on pretty simple. My 1st decision was to avoid all the junk food. I failed miserably right away. But still I managed to avoid some of them. My jogging sessions were good enough for me to stick to my normal life. But I wasn’t ready to accept the failure yet. Tried replacing sugar by honey was quite successful. The stupidest thing I have ever done is drinking a teaspoon of vinegar before each meal. How weired is that? Few days couldn’t make any noticeable difference in me. But I did loose some weight. About 1.5 kg in 2 weeks. That was a good effort. I wasn’t interested in making myself ugly anymore.I dont think typing all these inspired me to lose weight. I had 4 choclate chip cookies while getting this blog done.But Hope I helped one among thousands who is trying to be skinny and look extra sexy !